Once In A Blue Moon

Kar was commenting that I have not blog for a long time. Looking at my previous blog, it was on August 4th, that means it have been 23 days since I last blogged. Hmm... seriously I have nothing much to talk about for the past 3 weeks. Same old same old... doing my carpentry job and scratching my head over French. French is really tough, maybe that's why they call it french kiss coz u need techniques to do it well.

Ok...I'm blogging now coz I'm feeling happy todae! Finally get a chance to meet up with my cousins. Not like anyone, a chance for me to meet up with my cousins is really rare or rather, not easy. God brought us the affinity to be cousins but put us through arduous tests. Hopefully the hardship we are going through will lead to a happy-ever-after ending.

The reunion today brought me thinking about many things. Memories, pictures, words, analysis are racing through my mind. A coin has both sides, do humans too have both sides? we can flip a coin over to see the other side but how do we reveal the other side of a person? Maybe the arduous tests that god put me through have contributed my great interest in pyschology.

Bought a nice wooden musical box from Germany for Trinity with the song Ít's a small world'. May she be a happy baby :)

Life's every changing

The last time when I blogged, I was feeling down. This time round when I am blogging, I am still feeling down. I can't remember when was the last time I am problem-free. Maybe when I was in primary one? Can't recall. Ask me about the happiest moment in my life, and I'll be tougue tight.

I am holding a job that pays me peanuts (yes, its the 'peanuts' again) but causes many cuts on my hands and ends my day with dirty clothes and pimpled face. C**S rejected my application in juz one day. Why? it's juz an a**p**t executive post and I am not suitable!?! I really would like to know the reason, but well, it's not given.

I'm with a boyfriend who treats me worse than a 'peanut'. Words like 'I love you', 'I miss you', 'How's your day?' have never been heard sincerely from him since like 3 years ago. He dun even remember things I've told him and he can't be bothered to find out what I like anymore. When he treats me like this, he can't blame me for treating him coldly. I can't smile when I see him, coz I dun see him smiling at me too. He smiled when he toks about his friends, but not at me.

Looking back at old photos, I can't imagine the kgs that I've put on. Seems like I have been eating too well lately and obviously not exercising enough. Most prob that's the reason why my boyfriend no longer loves me and the job is paying me peanuts. Discrimination.

Friends are getting attached and slowly they are leaving me alone. Not that they want, but they are too busy being in love. I understand. I am ONCE in love too.

I have an audition next week, but not having high hopes. Since my life is so miserable recently, nothing too good will turn out for me right?

I muz have done much evil in my past life.