Detached or Re-attached?

Yong is coming back in 2 weeks time and I'm having mixed feelings about his return. I'm feeling happy for the fact that I do miss him (Can't believe I just said that!) but, part of me very much wanted him to stay in France for slightly longer. Urm... maybe for another year or so?

Yeah... contradicting I know. You see, I'm such an understanding girlfriend that I know he hasn't saved enough, so I seriously don't mind him working harder for his future ya know? Nah, actually I'm not that thoughtful. The truth is... during his absence for the past one and half year, I'm kinda enjoying the freedom that I've got. Not that he's a possessive boyfriend nor are we a pair of gluey couple, but I love having all the time for myself. I need not be bothered about what is he doing and where is he going. I need not lose sleep for having to wait for his message till the wee hours when he was working in the night shift and I need not scratch my head for ideas on where to go over the weekends. Okie, maybe the only distress was to dwell on why Mr Wood hasn’t called for so long. That pretty much upset me.

It has been 7 years, you can't blame me for being so pragmatic. Anyway, my dear friends don’t worry about wedding bells ringing. If Mr. Wood is to propose, he’ll scare the sh*t of out me and I’ll definitely be a runaway bride. No marriage at this point please.

I do, however, ponder whether our relationship will still be the same when he returns.